Welcome
This is the homepage of my website.
The real meat and potatoes, my diary updates, are stored here.
Feel free to explore what it has to offer for you.
I'd advise reading the
About Me beforehand to get some insight into who I am and what exactly this website is. I will warn you though, it's a bit of a long read.
Diary
I will update this daily, however please do not be surprised if I miss a day or two.
Every month, I will clear the front page of the blog and add those entries to the archive page, as to not make the page too long.
- 2025.05.11 - 1:07 AM
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yesterday was injection day. i ended up hitting a nerve with my stupid eczema medication and it was really painful. worked on the bench some more. i'm not really taking pride in what i do anymore. everything i do is just something to fill the void and even that doesn't really do anything for me. i'm going to bed.
- 2025.05.08 - 6:54 PM
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the days are starting to blend together. today was just as boring as yesterday. i feel like my life is starting to slide back down again after i thought things were getting better for me. i'll probably do a video talking about this as well.
- 2025.05.07 - 4:37 PM
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today was very boring and uneventful. a lot of boring assignments, lectures, and busywork. that being said though, melanie lives another day.
- 2025.05.06 - 6:15 PM
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this time i come bearing good news: i finally spoke to a guy semi-normally. the exchange went a little bit like this:
Guy (not specifically talking to me): "Where is the teacher?"
Me: "We have a sub today"
Me: "She's the old one who doesn't really give a shit about phones so we're in luck today"
Guy: "oh cool"
also i went to the grocery store and rockstar energy drinks were 4/$5, ive never seen a deal like that for energy drinks, that's practically shoplifting. today was a good day.
- 2025.05.04 - 6:00 PM
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i'm not going to lie, i'm getting sick of the way ive been writing these entries. all this "look at me i'm mature i use proper punctuation, grammar, and capitalization" is a lot more tiring than you'd think. anyways i've wasted my entire day ripping a giant stack of cds.
- 2025.05.03 - 12:01 PM
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Listening to my dear friend activedenialsystems today. I was listening to music last night and I don't exactly know what happened, but something clicked inside me. I feel like I've finally found myself after all of these years. I'm sure that's a bunch of nonsensical drivel but I feel really good about it. I feel as if I finally found my real personality after years of having identity issues (If you want to learn more about this, see the About Me section.). So if that means spending 3 hours making my PC look like windows vista and being stuck in a past that I barely experienced, then so be it. I found myself.
- 2025.05.02 - 5:02 PM
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You know, I actually had a surprisingly good day today. Between my makeup working well enough, getting a 100 on an essay, and the fact that it's a friday, I had a good day. Melanie lives another day.
- 2025.05.01 - 5:09 PM
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Most of my illness has subsided. I apologize for the absence. I guaruntee I will be buried in schoolwork for a bit, but I promise I'll keep the site and youtube channel active to some degree. Expect more posting.